Because i'm so fucking disappointed in myself. To have the title of having the lowest grade in my class. & my recent test, ( chapter 4 test ) to get the lowest TEST score. To have the lowest grade. To be the lowest one. .

It feels like a bitch.

Compensation please .

& Volleyball results tomorrow. Maybe this will take part of the 'compensation' or whatever? Who knows, because i really dont mind if i didnt make it. Truth be told, i tried out because i really didnt want to go to geometry. And whoever read my first paragraph ^ should know why.

Because how would it feel to walk through the doors, knowing you're the 'dumbest' one in there. & not as smart as everyone else? To put your head down while you walk through. To have your head up as the bell ring to get out of that class. To be the first one out of the class. .

That's emotional pain.


& Now, i need to find a motivation, and a stress reliever.

EDIT: Because no one's really there for me when i need something .