EDIT @ 4:05 P.M.
alrighty ; so .
First off, i said this in my private blog, so i realized i should say it here.
" It was your birthday. And that means 6 months. "
No homo, HAH, but i did have a dream about you, many times, before the 6 month occured. It must be a sign,
ki; i was talking to him, and the things he said made me open my eyes a bit wider. & i just fucking remembered that one night, that one time. WHAT THE HELL Was i just there, for nothing ? I DONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE IF IT WAS A MONTH OR SO AGO, i just remembered that one night. That one time when i needed to tell you . . & i was about to let you know. because i think you deserved to. and i needed to tell you it was the 30th that was 5 monthhs. let me tell you something. Do you know what TRUST means. We're suppose to have the biggest 'trust' of all. and we did. back in the past. And now when i think back, i was like wtf. i dont even know what to say anymore, even though it was a while back, im still mad that you actually did that to us. Yes yes, it was just a little deal, but it meant alot if it was something that caused our friendship right? it seems like youre just one of those people . Just like everyone else. but i dont blame you. youre young. still to young. & for us to leave you like that, it must be hard. Now, i realize something though. the things i said this week . i take it all back. Yep. mhm. Private blogs are gay. i should stop blogging in it every damn hour. I take everything back i said in my private blog about you. im deleting it all. Because V
the text i just sent you, read it. and understand. having 6 hours of sleep, next to you, and then waking up, seeing you leave and blogging about you is pretty lame. So i shouldnt have rushed it. i edited, and it seemed like i was way off. 9 page text to you. I'll post it up here later to what i said to you.
Changes this whole conceeeept. No more rush. Take my time, nice and slow. steady. I wonder why i made it such a big deal. maybe becuz you were one of my closest friend, and like in the text i sent you. even if i gave up on you, ' im sure you can still have that title back ' . Right leegitament ?
Things are missing from there ^ . sister is yelling. i needa get off the laptop, the text post lateer .
