okay, fuck geometry right now. idc if i have 8 pages of worksheets and some problems from the problems. I'm tired. I'm confused. I'm clueless. & i dont even get it. My days go by so smoothly, i always look forward for that 2:50 bell, but what i realized, is that ; that means i have to go through geometry. LAST. oh what fun. <^> Seems's like last year math all over again .
I had the choice between two schools. I tried to find the one that would be better. So i weighted, and balanced it out. LQ; a school where all my friends were/are. A school where i never even got 'drama' with from my friends. & them, who makes me feel important. A school i planned to go since 4th grade. 5th grade. 6th grade. 7th grade. . THEN WTF happend in 8th? Oh yeah, i met my BFF. The person that was the most importantEST person to me at one point in my life. i weighted it. and guess what. YOU were more important than all of the things i even said about LQ. So what did i do? i told my mom on the day i was suppose to give her an answer " FOUNTAIN VALLEY " & boy, was she surprised . Later on, i got closer with my Bestfriend, and that made the more reasons for me to go to FV. My bestfriend, is always there for me. No matter what the fuck happens. Yeah, we go through some really unusual and . . That reminds me. your note.. ------ Wow, i just finished reading it. You made me tear up. But they're tears of joy. . actually i dont know how i'd describe it. Just happy tears. Anyways. . yeah, My bestfriend, means most to me right now. Through the thick and thins. Actually no. The things me and my bestfriend went through, is ALL thick . You cant considered anything thin between us. So there. No one has helped me as much as you. & that's why right now. i'll say it ONCE again.
Thankyou. For all you've done for me. For all the times you heard me complain and you just there listening . For all the times, i need something, and someone. For all the times i had problems. I came to you. Not all the time, but now. i know for a fact that whatever happens i will. I need you, and so i dont plan on moving schools hopefully. Because of you, and currently. . because of someone else.
You . The person that i would do anything for. First off, i read this paragraph over, and i noticed there's alot more things i need to say in this, but this is all for now. BUTTT ; You made me realize many things about myself. Not only that. But you brought out a happiness in me that i'd never felt before. but to be honest, you ALSO have brought the deepest, saddest, emotion i've felt aswell. Actions, tells you alot about yourself. Your actions in the past . . is possibly the reason we're here now. I dont know im saying all these things right now. But i feel it. Anyways, the things you do. Excites me . It's weird, but i find it amusing that you 'treat me bad' . Wanna know why ? Its because, if you treating me is bad, currently. & i'm PERFECTLY fine with my life right now. Then imagine, what'll happen when you finally " treat me good " ? Exactly, and that's what i'm going to look forward to. You usually dont try. You told me you would. & like you, i'd love it for a person to keep their word. . But all in all. I think its ME that should be thanking you. Not the other way around. 2 months and about 3 weeks so far, & i believe we're going strong. Even though there's just those small little stupid things , that we blame each other for, that can cause something. Just . . remember, because i am too. We shouldnt let such little things. Cause and break something so big . Us.
i dont think im done yet. . SO back to you, BFF, alvin truong . You told me you dont read blogs anymore. but im somewhat hoping and NOT hoping you read this paragraph . Because i hereby annouce that this paragraph here, is only only for you. ; ; We were arguing yesterday, we were yelling out the mistakes we did. The flaws we have. I was rude, disobedient, disrespectful, and straight out a jerk at lunch yesterday. Yeah, i admit it. But right now, i'm not asking for an acceptance to my apology. Actually, im not apologizing at all. And you shouldnt eithier. But there was somehtin you said yesterday that struck me . " I got you, her " . And right now, those words replay in my head. Because now i realize that you did 'get' me the person that is my second most importantest person in my ife right now . Why do you think i always said thankyou to you ? After 869, those thankyou's was because of that. Thats the only reason i said thankyou after that date. The thankyou's i said before that ? Was because . . you were always there for me. But mostly, because youre my BestFriendForever. I neevr told you the reason why, and you told me i shouldve. and so now im listening to you. And there it is ^ . After the things that happen. Me and you both know that posssibly, things from here on out wont be so easy to get back huh ? I'm not asking you to become my BFF again. I'm not asking for anything . All im asking, is if one day i come to you for something really important, i hope you'd help me. because I KNOW. i can rely on you. But i know you have your reasons, if you wont . Because i dont do that to you. ALmost a month ago. i told myself and her . " In every relationship, the boy has to do his part. the girl has to do hers. " i told her that she needs to do hers. And she did . kinda (: but anyways, I will rephrase that and make it direct towards us. " In every FRIENDSHIP, both individuals must do their part. " i think this is better. And now, let me tell you something. the friendship we had. almost a year now. actualy more than that. Because i remember you telling me what happend to your birthday a year ago . . Anyways, Guess what ? in response to that quote. i admit. You did yours. You did alot. You did so much. You did so much, that some of that 50/50 percent we're suppose to share, went over to mines. If that made sense. But yeah i also admit. That i didnt do mines. & i realize, maybe i shouldve tried a litle bit harder . But now, i'll actually say it. But im sorry. Not because of that ^ but because of.. letting this friendship fall, and corrupt .
There . To end this paragraph for you, i want to tell you something else. " I remember, how we always use to talk about colors. . Not only for people . . but for other things, like shoes and clothes. " HAH; red, black, and white, makes a good combo huh? & so that's what i did. Even though i added green, my favorite color to it. . I made a bracelet for MYSELF, to wear, to know that no matter what happens. even if things wont be the same as they were, i'll wear this bracelet wherever i go. Because of ; those thankyou's <3 i said to you. and because of you, personally .
An hour later . . back to geometry, im too busy . but
IN CONCLUSION ;
The ThankYou's .
I thankyou all, once again .
First, the most thankyous. . to you Bestfriend, Annie Bui . <3
Than you, BFF . . Even though i shouldnt be calling you that.
And lastly, you . JulieThuyNguyen <3
